前单位让我感到痛苦的是每个同事都非常努力地工作,相比之下我已经是工作最少的了,我不禁羞愧地低下了头,我的同事北大哥都任劳任怨,我都不是北大的怎么好意思喊苦喊累嫌弃工作呢?
从工作量来说,我不如别人工作的多,从疲劳程度上说,我又远远比别人更累,所以很自卑感觉我非常不如别人。
到新单位之后,工作内容和我的专业完全对口如鱼得水,经常感觉不到时间的流动就到下班了 。
这么完美的工作我的运动员同事却觉得非常痛苦,因为她一看书就会头痛,就算只是看到我在看书也会呼吸困难,可能这种有人在学习的氛围就会让运动员感到窒息。
想了想如果让我去运动的话,估计不超过5分钟,我也会想死想死。这时又回想前单位,意识到根本不是我的错,不是我不如别人,估计就是不喜欢那个工作,氛围也不适合我,别人能适应,也有人喜欢那个工作,但是不是我的错
虽说都知道人各有所长,但真正在一个不适合自己的环境里,还是会沉浸其中觉得很难受处处不如人,逃离出来才能意识到不要责怪自己!!!!
I am unwell today. I woke up from nightmares & fitful sleep and started booking therapy sessions and sending mental health inquiries to my GP. Filling these forms proved to be really triggering and I spent the whole afternoon in self-loath. I hate everything and nothing. I want to rest but I really must complete this damn book review before me. NOW.
#chess
I believed when I posted this that it had recently happened
Its been pointed out to me that it happened in 2017
I apologise for misleading
Ukrainian Chess Grandmaster Anna Muzychuk refuses to play in Saudi Arabia and says: "In a few days, I will lose two world titles, back to back." Because I decided not to go to Saudi Arabia. I refuse to play by special rules, to wear abaya, to be accompanied by a man so I can leave the hotel, so I don't feel like a second class person.
Seems like a sell out by Fide
打卡check了一下自己(like旅游打卡),书单里的戏剧都读过ok,诗大半读过也ok(部分Spenser 和一些早中期Elizabethan没读到),prose…prose我表演一个啥也没读:abloblamp:
Come on you gotta choose your weapon, J-45 or AK-47